"I wanted to ask you to stay with me that day but you have the new place to run so... I was going to try and talk to one of the counselors on campus..." he trailed off for a moment before starting up again. "Believe me when I say my memories of you, my thoughts and love for you, are all that kept me alive that year before you found me again. I harbor no ill feelings towards you over leaving when you did, my love. I never have. I forgave you the day you left. You have got to forgive yourself. What happened to me was not your fault. They'd have come for me if you'd been with me or not and you know it."